New Moon!

I cannot even explain how excited I am for New Moon to start on Friday!!!!! After reading the books, a sense of obsession came over me and I cant get enough of it!! now I have to wait until June to see Eclipse!!! I love Robert Pattinson<3 He is so yummy! and Edward Cullen is like a fantasy love for everyone lol. I'm not a fan of smokers, but if you are Robert Pattinson, then its okay!! lol.

So Friday!!! ahhhhhh!!!! I'm going more thank once for suurree!!!!

TEAM EDWARD!!!

Update

Work is going great. Everything seems to be going okay for now. I just seem to have a problem with one of my friends now, but it is pretty personal because it hits close to home. I just want to stay away for a while because this person makes me angry sometimes and this person is also unmotivating in a way. So right now I just want to be positive :)

Anyway, I went to the Jimmy Kimmel Show and I turned 21! woo! Here are some pics

21

I got the job!!!! woooo!! I work at Toys R Us now!!!! yeeeaaayyy!!!!!

so I'm turning 21 tomorrow and I'm not as excited as I thought I would be. Everyone makes it seem like OMG but to me it just seems like another day... people have been making me feel awkward lately, and im totally pretending all the time. Its sad to say, but even the fact that I can buy booze now doesn't excite me. I dunno why!!!!

Boom Boom Pow!

i had a pretty chill day today, besides the fact that my phone doesn't work. lol

I also had a headache for most of the day but oh well. I wanna be optimistic! and tomorrow I have an interview!!! yay!!! i'm a little nervous!!! ahhhhh! especially because its a group interview. C'mon I used to interview people! what the heck is wrong with me!!! lol. oh well, i will try my best! :)

And this is the reason I smile everyday!! My beautiful baby Lola! She is the cutest dog ever, although she's really a little human! hehe. Lola is adorable<3

"Dreaming With a Broken Heart"

I cant remember the last time I was genuinely happy. For several years now, there has been an emptiness in my life. Don't get me wrong, I have had some good times, but ever since this one day in 06, my life has been incomplete. I've become such a pro at faking a smile. There is always some shit happening in my life. I always feel so alone. Lately, its gotten worse. The other half of my heart is doing what the other half did. The 2 people I love most in this world abandoned me. One physically and one emotionally and I don't know which hurts more. Yes, I know I have my friends, but there is only so much they can do. Sometimes I feel like even they are just there to pass the time. I have very few people that I trust, I have serious trust issues and I can only think of one person that I have ever opened my life to, my best friend. I know she didn't need to prove anything, but she has been the only person in my life that has ever loved me unconditionally. I cant even say that about my drug addict brother and sister that have shared the same pains I have. I know they all have their problems, but I always go that extra mile and I'm tired of being stepped all over. I'm just really stressed out lately that not even those fake friends can distract me. It sucks. I need to get my life back together and straighten out. Hope everything goes well on Tuesday so I can get that much needed start!! I just have to keep faking my smile and try to be optimistic!!! Lets do this!

And so I quote John Mayer... "when you're dreaming with a broken heart then giving up is the hardest part... then all at once you have to say goodbye..."

The Ellen Degeneres Show

I went yesterday, it airs today! here are some pics!


And this is George Clooney's Office!

johncmayer

I feel totally bummed for some reason, and I hate it...

I have been listening to some John Mayer. His music is soooo soulful, it makes me feel a little better, and also a little sad at the same time. But I love it! John Mayer is the perfect guy. He sings and writes beautiful songs, and he is hilarious! His sarcasm is never dull and he just seems so real. I love him!

"Can't seem to hold you like I want to
So I can feel you in my arms
Nobody's gonna come and save you
We pulled too many false alarms

I was the one you always dreamed of
You were the one I tried to draw
How dare you say it's nothing to me
Baby, you're the only light I ever saw

I'll make the most of all the sadness
You'll be a bitch because you can
You try to hit me just to hurt me
So you leave me feeling dirty
Because you can't understand"